About my pain,... trying to come back

Good Morning, how have you been?

I am trying to be brave, and come back to scrapbooking.
My Heart is still bleeding. I have lost so many scrapkits.
Some photos where able to be rescued, but most I lost.
Now I got a new pc last winter, which has a "mirror-hard drive"
Means, everything I do will be saved twice. If one hard drive crashes
I still have one where everything was copied to.

Still it makes me nervous to get started. Still so many kits I havent used yet
And for some photos, I think of those kits I wanted to use, for some kits think of the
photos I wanted to use.
I am missing lots of them, and dont know if I will be brave to buy or freebie-download
me any anymore.

Also I had a horror even taking pictures... only the most important occassions
I had snaped... not even with passion, tough I miss taking time to walk out
and enjoy life behind the lense. I am so horrified to loose anything again.

Last horror happening to me ... and will never again:
My 9 year old turned 10, and I took him to Sea life.
Prepared with camera .... we had a great time, I shot and shot and shot.. so did he with his 1st better digital snappy....
Getting home... there were no pictures... obviously the little one had the camera and played with it, changing all kinds of settings....
So,.. only a few shots of my boys cam... but non of the pretty ones I shot of him in front of the large sea life aquarium...

So, thats been the update here...
I dont know how to go about it...
I still have tons of Traditional Scrapbook Things...
And do also like the photo books you can print online
Also love the digtal art still....

I gotta find my way through... I will see ...
Just wanted to pop in and make myself writing down, like a contract to myself.

happy scrap!
Autumn comes